Apologies if this is a long entry but I want to use it to bring the story up to date. The Blogette (aka The Student) tells me I should keep entries short. I should bow to her wisdom and experience but will break the rule just this once.
One of the coincidences around Janine’s cancer diagnosis this time round is that it came almost six years to the day since she had the first. There cannot be any significance in that but there has been a strange familiarity to the last few weeks and the process we are going through.
There are also some distinct differences, of course. One is that Janine is actually feeling quite well and not in the pain she was in last time round. Amputation is also not an option – although I am sure there are going to be times when we all wish it was a possibility (its OK, she has heard that joke – a number of times). As you will see below, though there are complications from having had cancer before, this is not the original cancer returning and that is a positive.
We think it was the end of September that Janine felt as though she had swallowed something sharp and irritated her throat. The sensation came and went but she occasionally had difficulty swallowing. She went to see our wonderful GP and was referred to an ENT specialist with an appointment in December. We debated what it might be, one theory being voice nodules which seem to be in vogue at the moment – not just with celebrity vocalists but ‘plain old’ teachers as well.
It was the beginning of November when Janine noticed a lump in her neck. It was painless and looked like a swollen gland but she didn’t seem to have an infection and none of her other glands seemed to be affected. I can remember a sinking feeling as she told me.
Janine went back to the GP, who confessed that Janine scares him (Janine says she scares herself. She certainly scares me) and suggested going straight back to the oncology team who have always said she can go straight back with anything she is not happy about. That led to a CT scan up in London and then a biopsy.
Between the scan and the biopsy, Janine had the ENT appointment locally. We went to that in the hope that we would be told this was nothing serious but was throat related and could be cured easily. Instead, it was another step in being taken very gently towards understanding that cancer had appeared for the second time. The doctor had the results of the scan and was fantastically open and honest with us, reading the results and explaining that this was most likely to be a lymphoma of some sort.
The biopsy took place a few days later. Again, Janine had a great doctor carrying it out. By now we knew there are a number of lumps and Janine was able to see them on the ultra sound. The doctor was prepared to say that it was very unlikely they were benign.
This all meant that by the time we went up to London to see Janine’s Oncologist, we were fairly certain we knew what we were going to hear. There is so much I could write about what it feels like to go for one of these appointments or for one of Janine’s check ups. The first time I wrote this entry I started to do just that and began to philosophise on cancer and its impact on our lives. I soon realised that I was rambling incoherently and, well, it wasn’t going to be helpful to anyone and I am supposed to be keeping this short and factual !
So back to the story.
In that appointment and the subsequent appointment with the specialist who will now be treating Janine, we heard what we were expecting to hear which is that Janine has Non Hodgkin’s Lymphoma in her neck and chest.
For those who like the detail, it’s a diffuse large B cell lymphoma which is the most common type of Non Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. It is high grade and is at stage 2A which means it is in two places but restricted to the area above the diaphragm. The A means that Janine does not have any B symptoms which would be more serious.
If you want to know more you can read the sections on the Cancer Research or Macmillan websites which are very good and even include diagrams. I kid you not.
The real question, of course, is what does this all mean. A friend asked me in the last few days just how serious this is because all these descriptions and stages and grades mean nothing to us really. I just write them down confidently, merely repeating what we have been told and what I have read. I even said to the consultant that everyone had been so positive talking to us that I almost felt that I had been told Janine has a cold, that she will given paracetamol over the next six months and then everything will be fine.
The truth is, of course, that this is serious but that the cancer is treatable with more chemotherapy. If this was the first time Janine had had cancer then the survival rates (living for 5 years beyond the diagnosis) are around 70% which is very good and certainly better than the 50/50 prognosis she had last time. As this is a second cancer (and for the moment being taken as a side effect of the drugs used in the chemotherapy last time), all we have been told is that the percentage is less. As above, it is still better than having the previous cancer return.
The treatment is going to be six months of chemotherapy and possibly some radiotherapy. We are waiting to hear what form the chemotherapy will take as one of the drugs that would usually be used to treat this cancer is one Janine had last time around and which she therefore may not be able to have again. We should hear on Christmas Eve (after a team meeting – Janine likes to keep teams occupied). We are also hoping to hear then the results of a somewhat painful bone marrow test which will tell whether the cancer has spread there and could mean very different treatment.
We know that nothing will happen until the New Year, which is a great relief and means we can enjoy the Christmas we have planned.
Thanks for sticking with this. Thanks to those of you following as well. God has surrounded us with such fantastic people. And as I said in the first entry, I really am hoping that this will be a blog that you actually rarely read and forget even exists.
I’ll post again Christmas Eve if we hear anything of note.
9 comments:
Andy...huge thanks for starting this blog...I always feel that blogs are incredibly helpful in giving the reader pointers for prayer...I know as I have read this I have prayed at the same time.
It also saves you and Janine having to repeat news to folk who ask....
In all this....you guys know a great and loving God.....
Andy and Janine, a friend of mine had this type of cancer when she was 21. She is still with us, with two small children to boot (post cancer!). The Atkins' are praying for you all, keep it up Jacksons, we are always here if you need us xxx
Andy, my heart and prayers go out to you , Janine and the kids. I may not know what you are going through fully but God does.
Jeremiah 29.11-12 (The Message)
"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out - plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. When you call on me, when you came and pray to me, I'll listen"
As always we are with you, praying for you and love you. Huge hugs coming over the North Sea (probably carrying a lot more snow so sorry :-)
We could say lots, but only this will count: we love you Jacksons very much and we will pray for complete healing and total restoration. Lots of love from The Ropers xxx
My thoughts and prayers are with you and the family, lots of love being sent to you from the opposite side of Bracknell xxx
Sending you all lots of love, hugs and prayers for complete and utter healing and restoration. The leader of River Church in Maidenhead (who are linked to the charity I work for) had terminal cancer at the age of 15, was prayed over and subsequently amazed doctors at his complete recovery. He has been blessed and is now healing others!! Let me know if you'd like an introduction!! God soooo loves you all and is looking after you guys - your faith, God's love and all our prayers will pull you through. And you still need to make that ring square!!! Love you all loads Hils and Sophie xxx
It has been a great help to us, reading this blog, as we have all been thinking of you daily in the mecklenburgh household as we had no other news apart from the inevitable. Because of this blog we have the information we need to know what is really going on with you all. We want you to know how much you are loved by us all. Remember nothing is impossible with God. God Bless you x
We are so sorry that you all have to go through another trauma ... we will be praying for you all as a family, and especially Janine and you, Andy. God is preparing the way for you.
Much love, Anne and David.
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